Note to the reader: I am not about to tell any of you that you are wrong. What this post is about is How YHWY, the God of Creation continues to blow my mind.....I can never return to the way it was as a result.
I have friends who returned to Torah subsequently tossing the New Testament and the 1st coming of Yeshua into the wind. Equally, today, unlike 2000 years ago, the "Born Again" nation of Israel lives outside of the knowledge of the Messiah's 1st coming while millions of Jewish people residing in America could careless about Biblical truth. I can't think of a better example of grace! The ritual traditions keep many connected to a sense of Jewish identity often not from the heart. I once had a Jewish man say to me, "We Jews attend synagogue because it's expected, it's what Jews do." He is the owner of several pornographic video, sex shops. I was unplugging his main sewer line for one such business. He was a very good customer of my former business. He always paid me....I first learned about what goes on in these places that day, YUCK!
I just never got what the message of Christianity was supposed to do? Everyone around me was getting divorced, having sex with one another, married or not, having abortions, doing drugs or practicing homosexuality. I was attending one church when suddenly it was made known that one of the youth pastors was molesting younger boys. I remember on another occasion while attending a mega church in Portland, Oregon using the rest room when suddenly two of the elders both of whom I loved, respected and admired entered. They did not know that I was in the stall. They proceeded to speak about a friend of mine. The vulgarities and expletives (which included the word nigger) that were coming out of these two men shocked me, I was stunned! They were aware of something that I was not but to them, both he and I were niggers. My friend was gay and was under investigation for molesting someone's child. I was crushed....Later that day, I found out that what was being said about my friend was true. I called him to ask if this was true. He said, "The boy was 16 and consented." My immediate thought was, "Sick!" I didn't even know he was gay! I stopped attending church for many years that day......
As mentioned earlier, years later I returned to church. This time with my current wife and four children. I was addicted to crack cocaine. I wanted God to save me. I wanted help. I wanted my children to not know who I had become...I hated me!
I remember vividly in 1998 collapsing onto my living room floor crying out to God,
"IF YOU ARE WHO YOU SAY YOU ARE STOP ME, SHOW TO ME WHO YOU REALLY ARE!"
I had not hit rock bottom but I was truly at the end of ...me!
Three days later while driving down the road, I was broadsided by a church van moving at about 45 mph that should have killed me. That day Yahweh stopped me!
Today I am drug free, no cigarettes, alcohol or misery. I live with adversity and challenges but do so with unquenchable joy. Not because I found Jesus, on the contrary...I have a better understanding of YHWH. The Jesus that I was taught in the church is not the God who sent his only begotten son. I don't see the Bible or the story of Israel and that of the nations from the lens of any denomination or religious persuasion.
Deuteronomy 6, Jeremiah 31, or Ezekiel 36,37, 38, or 39 or much concerning the unlimited amount of information presented in the "Old Testament." No one ever taught to me about the mezuzah, or the covenant of salt, ancient custom of adoption or land agreements between ancient kingdoms and how they all relate to the Kingdom of God being constructed in the earth. Not one time has a church pastor taught about the numbers God created and why, or the patterns, thematic connections that reverberate throughout the scriptures. Not one time in the churches has a pastor broken down a scripture in the Hebrew revealing how screwed up a great deal of the translation to English changed the entire context of what is being shared. I have never sat in a church were the words, Paleo-Hebrew or Proto Canaanite (Picture language) was uttered. God has a calendar and a language but no one in the church ever mentioned either to me.
I can with conviction based on my own personal opinion say that apostasy is a direct result of religion.
I understand how we keep the adversary at the head of the table because we truly have lost the identity of the God of Creation. I have had Jewish Rabbi's say to me, "Your ignorance is astounding." I have had churches ask me to leave or Christians say to me, "I am concerned about your salvation, Jeff!"
Meanwhile, I am watching what God said.........this for me is the creme de la creme.
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God said, Israel is the Apple of his eyes. He would scatter them all over the earth and bring them back. He said that he would redeem the nations and raise up a prophet who would bring salvation to the whole world. He said that his Kingdom would be established in the earth with people that he created. He said that the kingdom would be governed by Commandments, Statutes and Laws and that he had appointed a Messiah to rule and to reign over all that he had done, forever! He said that not one jot or tittle of his laws would be discarded. He keeps the earth protected, the water drinkable, and the earth producing while he maintains the air that we breath. Ezekiel 20 and Isaiah 60 are excellent references about what GOD said...Not what the nation of Israel did or failed to not do....What did God say...this is what our focus must be on!
I left the church so that I could learn about HIM!......It's not possible for me to return to the lies that we have inherited...What the Church had not taught to me I realize now is due to the fact that the church does not know. What is taught is done so, "Darkly"...Nevertheless, I was exposed to the Gospel of the birth, life, death and resurrection of the one whom God has sent to speak for him and to make atonement so that I might see my God face to face through his son.
This is what God promised to Israel, I am part of this relationship. He never promised a corrected religion but rather a corrected relationship.
Numbers 21:19 And Moses made a serpent of brass, and put it upon a pole, and it came to pass, that if a serpent had bitten any man, when he beheld the serpent of brass, he lived.
The God that I serve is active in the churches, within Islam and Judaism. He is active in the life of a cricket and the majesty of the mountain top....He is lifted up in my life and his identity is not what I was taught but rather who he said he was......
He is the Elohim of Israel who brings forth redemption of the world. I don't know him from a Jewish perspective or a Christian perspective...He is, "I Am." The more that I learn about him this way, the more that I realize how much I don't know or have to unlearn!
Genesis 17:7 I will establish my covenant as an everlasting covenant between me and you and your descendants after you for the generations to come, to be your God and the God of your descendants after you.
Exodus 6:7 I will take you as my own people, and I will be your God. Then you will know that I am the LORD your God, who brought you out from under the yoke of the Egyptians.
Moses taught that someday God would send a Prophet greater than he was (Deut 18:18).
Daniel taught us when this person would come (Dan. 9:24-27).
Micah taught us where this prophet would be born (Micah 5:2).
Isaiah taught that this prophet would be born from a virgin (Isaiah 7:14).
Isaiah taught that this person (our redeemer) would be both God and King (Isaiah 9:6).
Zechariah taught that the first appearance of Israel's king would be humble, coming on a donkey (Zechariah 9.9).
Isaiah taught that this person would take the penalty for our transgressions and through his death we could be healed (Isaiah 53).
King David taught that this redeemer would be put to death through crucifixion (Psalm 22).
King David also taught that after the death of this anointed one he would be resurrected (Psalm 16:10-11).
Zechariah revealed that when the King (the Lord Himself) comes back for the second time, He will fight to protect Israel (Zechariah 14:1-4).
One final note....I continue to pay for the choices that I made. My past is a train wreck. The difference is I understand my redemption. I don't live in the past and I don't support religion. When I sit in the churches I understand the message but it is like sitting in kindergarten learning how to say the alphabet...Truly, I mean no disrespect.