When I first became aware of the Messianic Movement, Hebrew Roots and the study of Torah, I have, to this day, never had the inclination to dress Jewish or to look like a 1st century Hebrew. It has never been a part of my revelation to emulate the Jewish people. The fact of the matter is one day the LORD spoke to me and made clear to me that he existed and was very involved with Israel. The nagging questions that I had the more I practiced my faith were somehow arrested that day.
I understand that God created all things and in him all things are made.
I started following conferences that shared about the Torah. Another reality of my, "Journey of faith" poured out before me. I wanted other Christians to see what I was seeing. The excitement that I was experiencing about God was and continues to be overwhelming. Not everyone agreed nor did other Christians come running. I lost all of my Christians friends the more I spoke about Torah. Well to be fair, I moved a couple of times, friendships faded, life changed. My best friend of 20+ years threw me under the bus. My faith however, exploded!
I went through the confusion of the two house vs the one house theories concerning Ephraim and Judah and continue to seek understand through the Scriptures concerning that conversation. I am learning about the birth of Judaism from Babylon and Rabbinic Judaism after the demise of the 2nd Temple along with the foibles and failures of the Jewish people to keep the Covenants in between.
I have numerous friends and former acquaintances who have considered the teaching of the Orthodox Rabbis so much so that they have tossed the teachings of the Disciples and Rabbi Paul or the New Testament under the bus which includes the redeemer of the world. I know Christians who refuse, absolutely refuse to consider the Hebraic originality of the Scriptures opting instead to remain secure in all that was born at Nicea and the Council of Trent
Proverbs 30:4 He said to me: “Who went up to Heaven and came down, and who is holding the wind in his palms? Who has bound the waters in a napkin and who has established all the ends of the Earth? What is his Name, and what is his Son's Name, if you know?
I am an American because of who Yahweh is. I was born Black because of what he decided. I am trying to live as a child of Yahweh because of a choice that I was given. [I have been waiting for about 20 years for someone to explain to me what an African American is exactly.] I am heading towards 60 (With a few years to go) struggling through the ups and the downs of life just like believers the world over. I pray for Israel and I pray for my needs and the needs of others. (I wish I was better at praying most of the time)
Why would I want to be Jewish? The Jewish people have a history of causing the LORD to burn down the house and toss them out of the country. All of humanity is waiting for Israel to Shema, to keep covenant. It's the truth! Why on earth would I want to celebrate that history? On the other hand, Christianity has more doctrines then I have hair on my head these days. Getting out of that confusion was like coming up out of water having held my breath for 30 years.
I don't want to be religious...I am reading the scriptures and learning how to run from religion! I want to go back to what Adam, to what Noah saw. I don't want the interpretation or the facsimile, I want to be somewhere in the crowd dancing as did King David.
I am returning to the beginning, long before dysfunction embedded itself into my spirit. I am doing so with the Messiah of Israel and his Father........Un- Broken, Un-Ashamed and Un-Colored by the hell of being lost.
I spoke with my friend Rico Cortes a few days ago. We both agree, how can we possibly welcome our King with so much in fighting, so much arguing, so much division? We both want to see Isaiah, Chapter 60 fulfilled because of what Yahweh declared not because of what we are wearing or because of disagreement and pride.
It is not possible for me to deny Yeshua's birth, life, death and resurrection nor is it possible for me to wear another dyshiki